Message In Bottle

I just can't control these tears that fall from my eyes, I can't resist all this pain that I'm feeling, I can't stop thinking about you.. and I know I can't do it anymore, but I'm feeling like shit, because I was trying hard not to trust again, to not let people come inside my life, change everything that I'm and then left me empty, without nothing, but you came along like everything was fine again, like we could just let things go and you changed me, you made me believe that I was special, that I worth something more than what everyone always told me, I believed you, I trusted you, I broke every single promises that I made to myself, every single one, about not getting hurt again, not trusting in too much kindness, and the most important that one promise about not being giving myself away to someone.. but I gave myself for you, I told you things that I always kept inside of me, I showed you my soul, I let you come inside and I was trying to be ready for you, to be like home for you, because all that I wanted was to take care of you and to make you feel happy, because you showed that you needed me, you showed me that I was something special, but now I can't see things like this anymore, I don't feel special, I don't feel important, I feel like garbage, you replaced me so easily, but I don't think I was replaced, I think you were just hanging around waiting for something, but in this mean time I thought that you wanted the same thing that I and maybe I was waiting too much to do what I wanted but you knew that I was afraid of feeling like this and you made nothing to avoid it, you don't even showed that you cared about me anymore, you just thought about getting what you wanted without remembering that I told you that was you who I was waiting for to try again with all my problems and issues, you forgot that I could give everything away just to try with you.. and it's hurting me too much!
But thank you, you made me open up for nothing, just to get hurt once more and now I won't be able to let anyone get too close again like this.. thanks for you all my fears turned into reality again.